Today.. I am thankful
Today I am thankful for so many things.
I am thankful for my two beautiful, healthy daughters. I am thankful for their innocence, their health, their infectious laughs and Faithful spirits. I am thankful that they are children of God and truly know what to say when others are having a hard time. One of my best friends daughter has a horrible terminal disease called SMA. They have two other daughters who are in perfect health. Miss L (as I will call her in this post) can't fight off the common cold like other healthy children, she can't cough or swallow and her little body works so hard to fight a simple virus. Today, a cold virus has gotten the better of her and they had to take her to the hospital. She is currently on 8 LITERS OF OXYGEN, just to keep her oxygen where is should be. She will most likely end up on the ventilator within the next day or so. She has always been able to turn things around and fight the virus.. and I hope she does it again this round. Miss L's older sister came over after school today so her parents could be at the hospital. I am thankful for the girls friendship and I know they are going to be life long friends. I am so very thankful that we are here and that we can help this amazing family in really tough times.
Today made me think really hard about the pity party I have at times with myself. I don't like my weight, my looks, my carpet, my kitchen, my walls, my clothes.. and the list goes on. But.. does it really matter about those things? In the long run.. absolutely not. They seem so important at times and it IS a little important because if we like our home and it makes us feel good.. it makes us happy. However... this by no means defines happiness and it's so easy to fall into the trap of what I like to call.. "the gimmies". Gimmie this, Gimmie that.. I want it all NOW.
As I was driving home from Kansas City this weekend on Sunday morning I tuned in to a Christian channel and was just browsing the stations... and something caught my attention. There was a man talking about temptations and patience. The patience is what really caught my attention.. because I don't seem to have a lot lately. And it just put everything back into perspective for me that in time.. and that is in "God's time" I will have the things I need.. maybe even the things I want, but I need to put it in God's hands so that He can take my burdens on. I tend to get really caught up in something that I really WANT. In fact, I become a little obsessive and then it becomes all consuming and then I am mad, sad, disappointed etc.. that I didn't get what I want. But what I really want is "Peace in the Valley". Life becomes so all consuming and busy that I find myself losing focus on what I REALLY want. I want peace in my heart, patience in my soul and love of life that pours out to others... that is not accomplished by what I have in my home, but what God leads me to.
I kind of got off on a tangent there.. but the words just flow sometimes! :)
BUT.. I still want to list some more thankfuls below.. because I really am blessed to have so many people in my life and the things I need.
TOP Thankfuls.....
1. I am thankful for my awesome husband who supports me and loves me unconditionally.
2. I am thankful for my girls.. can't imagine life without them
3. For my awesome sister who knows me better than just about anyone else..
4. For my job that allows me to work school hours
5. For my wonderful Dad and Step-mom Lucy.. who always have the best advice and support!
6. For my amazing mother and father-in-law, I have known them for just about 21 years and they are like my second set of parents... LOVE YOU!
7. For the roof over my house.. even with all the things I want to change.. I am thankful
8. For my great neighbors and friends who make living in this neighborhood...Aw..Some!
9. For my adorable little Dudley.. he may be a stinker.. but I love him.
Brief pause... my oldest is throwing a fit because she can't have a snack right now.. DEEP BREATH.. I am supposed to be saying what I am thankful for.
10. For my health, that I take no medicine, I exercise 3-4 times a week and get stronger every day.
FOR ALL OF THESE THINGS (AND MANY MORE) I AM THANKFUL.. now I have to go deal with my 9 year old.. I think this is where the patience comes in. I remember a wise woman once told me (and yes Sharon, I am talking about you) that if you pray for patience.. God will test you.. let the test begin! :)